i think, me myself has lost it all .. just in a blink of an eye .. i lost everything that i most hold true to .. many things that i wanted to let out from my heart and mind, but i seems can't manage to do it .. i really do not understand why is it so .. it hurt so much just to even come to think of it, and its not even taken into action yet .. i'm mumbling, scribbling jibberish, can't even think straight .. i'm not asking for sympathy or pittance .. i have got no one to talk to .. that is why i wrote this rubbish out ..